Masakit isipin na hindi na ako yung most deserving to hear you cry, or to listen to you rant about people you hate. Ang hirap isipin that you’re not mine anymore and that I’m not yours. Sobrang hirap tanggapin that there will be other people to comfort you when all I’ve worked for was to be the one by your side every time you’d need a shoulder to cry on. Di ko matanggap na hanggang dito nalang pala tayo. Honestly, takot akong malaman na may iba nang magcocomfort sayo or may bago nang magttake ng place ko. How I wish ako pa rin. Sana ako pa rin. Sana ako pa rin yung pinupuntahan mo kapag masaya ka, kapag galit ka, kapag malungkot ka. I wish I was more understanding. Pero sa pagkakaalam ko, binigay ko naman lahat kaya nga wala nang natira para saakin, kaya hirap na hirap na ako ngayon. Kasi somehow, nung andito ka pa sa buhay ko, there was someone who reminded me that I was loved. Ngayon na wala kana, you brought with you all the love I had left for myself, kaya eto, sobrang lonely. I don’t ever think there’s a cure for my brokenness. Pero anong magagawa ko? All I can do is to try to stay alive physically, because I have been long dead, emotionally πŸ˜”

All I pray for is that I hope no matter how miserable I already am, I won’t affect you. I pray that you find someone to make you happy.